Hello. :)

Last Sunday: Out with Patrick for Itacho Sushi and mini shopping at town.

I had enough last night.

"Could you let me cry for a moment? I will be fine after that." It was 5.30 am in the morning. I sat on my bed, crossed my legs and tucked my head into the pillow. I told her over the phone that I was feeling down and I started crying really loudly like a three year old. To make things a little more dramatic as it already sounds, I soaked the whole pillow with my tears. It continued for an hour before I stopped pulling out tissues from my "Beautex". Oh my... How dramatic I can be.

The things that went through my mind was him and school.

His life is great, he is happy. Why the fuck do you even deserve to be happy after messing up my life? I don't mean that I want him to be miserable but it sucks to know that he is now leading a much happier life without me and I am still stuck in this shithole. Hi, I am a selfish asshole but I don't care.

School sucks and everything about it sucks.

I actually tried to post "Hi, I am dumb and stupid. Fuck you." at 6.30am. But it got saved into draft. So I am not meant to be dumb and stupid I guess. ^-^

My May

Zouk with Jessie last month ♡ Thanks for taking care of me that night. Owe you that much, xoxo.

Two weeks ago, with Jared and Favian after a night of chill drinking. They look kinda stupid cause I took random shots without their knowledge. (I don't think they know about the photos LOL)

2 days ago: Meet a good friend of mine for dinner, late night heart to heart talks. We talked about the past and how things would have been if I hadn't quit school. There were so many "ifs" and "maybes" but I guess God has a plan for me. I wouldn't have learnt so much if I didn't quit Singapore Poly too. Gotta love late night talks like this.

Last night with Casiline. 

Hello boring life :)

School almost everyday and finally comes a public holiday.

My iPad Mini is officially my BFF. I blog with it, do my RJ with it, take photos with it. Can't imagine my life without it especially when my phone now sucks. :(

Watched Ironman 3 yesterday and it was not bad. I find that the previous ironman movie is nicer though. Overall, I still like ironman cause the main lead is too hot to resist. HAHAHA.

They said I am crazy, maybe I am

I run. As long as someone is being too sweet, overly nice to me, I run. Maybe I'm trying to escape, I don't know. I can't stand someone being nice to me now because I can't let my guard down. I can't. The moment I do and let myself care, the whole history would repeat itself again. I'll be the oversensitive bitch you see down the streets, the one that no one likes.

I watched myself getting hurt, I feel the pain in my chest. I broke down. I'm not letting it happen again. I don't care if anyone cares enough to climb over the wall that I've built around my heart because I'm determined not to let anyone in anymore. Until the day I'm ready, I will be heartless bitch that refuse to be close to anyone. Practically anyone.

Today, I almost feel like things have went back to 3 years ago just that things are no longer the same.

Why did I even become like this?

"You shouldn't say sorry to me, you should feel sorry for yourself. Think about it, who's the one been treating you right, who's the one you can count on. For a person that doesn't think for you, is it worth it?" When my Mum texted me, tears uncontrollably rolled down and I started to break down. I wanted to hug my mum badly right now.

Freedom.

#01 A letter to my ex-boyfriend.

Dear you,

I remember the first time we met, how we talked and every little moments that we had together. I was young then, so were you. We could never talk or even know each other if someone hadn't made the first move. We were so young and foolish.

We texted all day, chatted all night. We could stay up till dawn talking about everything. You knew everything about me, I could rant the whole day and you've never ever complained that you are tired. We fell asleep on the phone together. We ditched lessons just to meet up, we had nothing to worry about.

You taught me what is freedom, you said, "you only live once, so just live it to your fullest." You taught me everything that I never knew, I became someone that I never thought I would become. We would do what ever we want, go where ever we want. The young us do not need to even think of any consequences. We were so happy back then.

It might be puppy love but I was the first time I felt light. You took away my worries and gave me back my smiles. Now that I am older, it is almost impossible to be free of worries and unhappiness. I gave my freedom back to the society and conform with the society's standards. All I could do is reminisce the happy times I had, the carefree life I used to lead.

Thank you for being part of my life once.

xoxo

It's been awhile.

I feel terrible. Extremely terrible..

I just want to be happy.. Why can't I?


I thought you are the one. I seriously do. I'm someone who is very insecure and paranoid over small little things. Things that you don't think they matter, they do.

:)

It is really weird. I do know that I am to blame for what ever that has happened. But still....

Scrolling through the timeline, seeing yourself getting scolded. Is that what I deserve? Okay, maybe I do. But ain't you a little too harsh? Looking at all those horrible words that came out from someone you once trusted, the feeling is terrible. I wanted to walk through the door, put my head up high and be indifferent to what you said. I can't do it. I can't. No matter how strong I may appear to be, I am not exactly unbreakable you know.

I told myself that I wouldn't cry and I will not.

♥

Hi Bitch, I miss you. Meet me soon xx

MINK LAST FRIDAY ♥

Last Friday, at Filter & Mink. I love partying with my girlfriends. I am free and I love it like that.





All the photos are really blur cause we took the photos with our phones! I still have a lot of photos with Valerie and I am waiting for her to send it to me. After so long, I finally see my Bunny getting wasted again. Hahahaha. (PS: She got wasted every time I go club with her)

Initially, I went to Filter with Ting bb,Valerie and Val's girlfriend. Then I met Jesselyn bb, Felicia bb and Carlers there! In the end, all went to Mink and party together!! ♥♥♥

Sometimes, smiling doesn't mean anything

It's 2.14am now and Ting is cheering me up on Skype now. Thanks baby for listening to all my rants. :)

Trying to help but everything has turned upside down.
Trying so hard to make things right, everything just went off track.
Under that smile of yours, how many times have you cried?


Yeah, I am such a bitch here for causing so much problems to everyone around.

Monday blues

It's the start of school after my 2 weeks break and yes, it's exams. I dragged myself up from my bed after 2 hours of sleep and reluctantly went to prepare for school. Monday blues :( I am having moodswings, and it's getting serious. I can be very hyper for a minute and very upset the next. OH YES, BIPOLAR. That's the word to describe me now.

I am currently blogging when everyone is presenting their presentation cause I was the 1st group to present. Damn bored nowwwww. Please let me have the motivation to study and stop thinking about other emotional and stupid stuff. Help!! :( I need to go off and listen to their presentations now. Woo woooo. Lol crazy, bye.

Oh ya, anyone wants giveaway? :) Planning on a giveaway soon for those who love me. Hehehehe ♥♥♥

Let's start anew

It's been awhile..

Yes, everything has changed. So let's start anew. :)
It gonna be lengthy, skip it if you are lazy.

Crying over the slightest matter that happened and trying to convince myself that I will be fine. It's dawn and I have to put on a mask to meet everyone around me. I smiled, I laughed, I told everyone that I am really fine. Putting up a strong front became the only way to convince myself that I am actually all right. Relationships, friendships... Why are they so fragile? It's only the start of June, why is everything so disastrous? When the night falls, everything changed. I would be cuddling under my cold blanket and tend to think a lot. Getting emotional seemed to be a norm recently. But hell no, I need to pick myself up as soon as possible. I want back my cheerful self.

1st Priority: Study
2nd Priority: Look at the 1st one.

Ever since I have started school, I haven't been blogging much. Life has been revolving around studies and maybe a little of partying and drinking. I have a new definition of life. I don't need millions, I just need your time. I don't need LV, I just need you to be by my side. Times that I have spent alone at your place, the friends that you restricted me to hang out with, the times where you came home in the middle of night while I am sleeping, the times when you have to work on weekends too, the times where you never had any time for me. It's now all over. I might regret it someday. We have different goals so it's better like this, isn't it? For now, I would only want to have studies as my boyfriend, and maybe partying as my date. :) I will tell myself to be happy and I will be happy. :)

Working & Studying

Sorry for the lack of updates as I was busy working and schooling recently! :( So... Other than Frolick, I have been working for Jcube for the past few weekends. As you know, it's a new shopping mall at Jurong East Mrt Station! AND YESSSSS, ICE RINK! That's not my point thou. I like the weekend job with my girlfiriends and having fun while working thou it was kinda tough.

What did I do during the past few weekends? Have you seen this anywhere? In trains, at Town, Bugis or even Dhoby Ghaut?

AND YES, I AM WORKING WITH MY GIRLS BEHIND THE 'NEWSPAPER. HAHAHA.

A lot of passer-bys have been taking photos of us holding the papers and some even thought that we are 'fake' humans. Lol. It was fun and tiring because we have to stand through out(we have breaks in between but the weather is being a bitch for the past few weekends). I gonna miss this job!! :( It ended already *inserts more sad faces*

Photos we took when we were having breaks! I only took with Esther cause she was beside me and my phone screen can only fit 2 person at one time. (USELESS BIG SCREEN!!!!) My phone has a big screen but it never fits more than 2 person using my front camera.

After work, let's relax! Have a frolick and let's chill ~ Yummyyyyyy~

Last-minute work at Frolick on last Monday at Cineleisure Frolick. Due to boredness, we took photos again! I'm going to post only a few of the photos! The rest on instagram! Find 'Lovewithberries' okay :)

I am going to end with a photo of me. Camwhore during work, hahaha. I only did it when there's no customers! That's what I have been busy with~ Pardon me for the lack of updates! xoxo

Bernice and I ♥

My team mate Bernice! ♥♥♥

RP

My classmates in RP :)

NYP bye!!~

Cineleisure's Next Online Sensation: Fashion Challenge

Hello! This is the last challenge we are going to do for the Cineleisure's Next Online Sensation. In a blink of eye, two challenges are over and now only left with the Fashion Challenge! We, Hopping Bunnies, went to Cineleisure to complete our challenge. We are so excited because all girls love shopping! ♥♥

So here's the video we did for the third challenge! Take a look and enjoy the video okay!

(Items featured: Round Geeky Specs from Becky Berry, Black White Tights from Editor's Market and Mustard Clutch from Editor's Market.)

Our video is cute right?! HAHAHAHA. PLEASE SAY IT'S CUTE CAUSE A LOT OF EFFORT WAS PUT IN FOR THIS VIDEO. IT TOOK LONGER THAN WE EXPECTED TO COMPLETE IT. WE HAVE NEVER EDIT A VIDEO BEFORE. HOPPING BUNNIES ON THE MOVE~ SHOPPING AND FASHION IS TOTALLY OUR FORTE BUT NOT EDITING VIDEO. SO PLEASE SEE OUR EFFORT IN IT! :)

These are the 'Before Makeover' pictures

Ting came wearing a casual tee and shorts when we meet up so Bel and I decided that we can have a makeover for her!

And these are the photos after the 'Makeover'!

We were walking around Cineleisure and thinking whether what to do for our video. We tried to find something that caught our eye and ta-da! The pair of black striped white tights will make your legs look slimmer. We decided to match up the tights with the Round Geek Specs from Beck Berry for the hip look and the Mustard Clutch from Editor's Market will make the whole outfit stand out.
Hope you guys would love our video and spread it!

In addition, our votes are lagging behind again! Support us by voting for us hourly! Not sure how to vote? It's okay, let me repeat the steps for voting again!

1st, Go to http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/cineleisure-next-online-sensation/vote/ 

2nd, click "sign up with Facebook" and click "Allow" (It's impt else the votes aren't counted *insert sad faces*)

3rd, Vote for HOPPING BUNNIES(we are at the top so it's easy to find!) and done!

Vote now!!! Mua mua mua! xx

Ladies night <3

Heli > Arena > Rebel just now. No pictures cause I didn't bring my cam along!! Regretted but yep, one less burden when I club hopped so it's okay! Martell + Champagne + Apple shooters = ???? I am fine but the kick just came~ It was fun and all with the girls. Sorry for updating at such time! But I am going to sleep now <3

Muamuamua xx

Vote for me darlings? :(

Hopping bunnies is lagging behind votes and we'd rlly appreciate it if someone is willing to help us out!

Pretty please? :(

It is really easy and there's only 3 steps to it!

1st, Go to http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/cineleisure-next-online-sensation/vote/ 

2nd, click "sign up with Facebook" and click "Allow" (It's impt else the votes aren't counted *insert sad faces*)

3rd, Vote for HOPPING BUNNIES(we are at the top so it's easy to find!) and done!

PS: You can do vote for us everyday! Pretty please? xx