Hello boring life :)

School almost everyday and finally comes a public holiday.

My iPad Mini is officially my BFF. I blog with it, do my RJ with it, take photos with it. Can't imagine my life without it especially when my phone now sucks. :(

Watched Ironman 3 yesterday and it was not bad. I find that the previous ironman movie is nicer though. Overall, I still like ironman cause the main lead is too hot to resist. HAHAHA.

They said I am crazy, maybe I am

I run. As long as someone is being too sweet, overly nice to me, I run. Maybe I'm trying to escape, I don't know. I can't stand someone being nice to me now because I can't let my guard down. I can't. The moment I do and let myself care, the whole history would repeat itself again. I'll be the oversensitive bitch you see down the streets, the one that no one likes.

I watched myself getting hurt, I feel the pain in my chest. I broke down. I'm not letting it happen again. I don't care if anyone cares enough to climb over the wall that I've built around my heart because I'm determined not to let anyone in anymore. Until the day I'm ready, I will be heartless bitch that refuse to be close to anyone. Practically anyone.

Today, I almost feel like things have went back to 3 years ago just that things are no longer the same.

Why did I even become like this?

"You shouldn't say sorry to me, you should feel sorry for yourself. Think about it, who's the one been treating you right, who's the one you can count on. For a person that doesn't think for you, is it worth it?" When my Mum texted me, tears uncontrollably rolled down and I started to break down. I wanted to hug my mum badly right now.