"Could you let me cry for a moment? I will be fine after that." It was 5.30 am in the morning. I sat on my bed, crossed my legs and tucked my head into the pillow. I told her over the phone that I was feeling down and I started crying really loudly like a three year old. To make things a little more dramatic as it already sounds, I soaked the whole pillow with my tears. It continued for an hour before I stopped pulling out tissues from my "Beautex". Oh my... How dramatic I can be.
The things that went through my mind was him and school.
His life is great, he is happy. Why the fuck do you even deserve to be happy after messing up my life? I don't mean that I want him to be miserable but it sucks to know that he is now leading a much happier life without me and I am still stuck in this shithole. Hi, I am a selfish asshole but I don't care.
School sucks and everything about it sucks.
I actually tried to post "Hi, I am dumb and stupid. Fuck you." at 6.30am. But it got saved into draft. So I am not meant to be dumb and stupid I guess. ^-^