I am an ugly duckling, I am an ugly duckling, I am an ugly duckling. I can never be as perfect as others, I can never be as perfect as others, I can never be as perfect as others. I always envy other girls with flawless complexion, distinct features and have BRAINS. I feel so... inferior in so many ways.
I don't have depression. Stop judging me. I just felt like it's end of the world like most teenagers did when they are down. I AM NOT DEPRESSED. I can smile while crying. Yes, I always have negative thoughts but that's what most city people have right? I tend to think everything in a negative way and I can cry when any possible negative thoughts come into my mind. But... It's normal right? Haha..
After I stopped going to lectures and got withdrawn from school...
I miss hanging out in the streets and bullying my best friends. I miss teasing them and asking them to carry my laptop for me. I miss having brunch with them. I miss the times when they laugh at me when I drop my phone. I miss my classmates. I miss projects that kept me busy even though I hate doing research and rephrasing everything. I miss my classmates that are on the same channel as me when we are talking about cosmetics. I miss everything in the past. How I wished I could turn back the clock but it's impossible now.
I have a lot of thinking to do and I need to stop before my emotions get worse. Goodnight everyone. ♥
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