Smile like nothing's wrong

Why am I thinking so much when I am alone... I don't like this kinda feeling at all lor. I think I am thinking too much, but like I can't help it? I hate to condemn people, but what you did to me after all is worst than everything that I did to you.

Yeap, I said that you could do this but I didn't expect you to really do it? Like, none of my ex boyfriends did. It's a grave mistake and you lied to me, remember? I thought I was the one that was at fault, I came and sort things out. If I ever know that you ever did this, I wouldn't even come over at all. But I forgive you anyway...

However, I couldn't help but kept recalling it. Every night, when you're fast asleep, my thoughts run wild and was uncertain of our relationship. I knew I lied to you but everything I ever did never hurt you like how you did. I thought I can get over it.. I really thought I could. Yes, I can, when I am asleep. When I am alone, the same thing arise. I kept thinking over and over again. Am I stubborn or it's really that unforgivable? Maybe I can get an answer soon....